Stars

the stars, they shine
when you reach out
and try to kiss the stars
who do you remember?

Sometimes I Miss You

missed
you are the one person
who gets this pounding
and argh!
i'm forced to make myself think but i have
zero
inspiration
for
anything
right
now
except
sigh.
lalalala
okay, so you're the only person who understands me
(*at this moment()
and i think maybe you're
just a little bit
too far away
for me to handle
and i worry
what does college mean?

lovely night
whooooooooooooooooooooooooo
caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw
silence
ouch
she wakes up with a chip in her shoulder
i'msorryitsnotmyfault
dolls aren't supposed to sleep with humans but
we're different and nobody cares until
owican'tgetthisshouldertocrack
ouch.
i settle into the covers
i whistle like the whooooooooooooooooooooo's even though we don't hear them
aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
last night i figured out
that maybe we have something in common
maybe i don't need to replace you because
see that little place in my chest(it's called a heart)
it keeps e x p a n d i n g
and so there's room for both of you
even though samantha
and hope,
they hide behind the penguins so
sleeping there doesn't hurt anyone.
but me, i've got this thing
if i'm not close enough to the people i love
sometimes i forget they are there.

run
suddenly i'm taken over
by this monster who's attacking
and he's racing for my body
but i've got the human instinct
i know i have to run away
but then he just stops
suddenly
and i know
he's just, just...
edward

happy holidays
"so what if i've been a little on the anemic side these past weeks?
so what if i'm dizzy, got a little lightheadedness?"
i'm not really,
dizzy,
not physically,
just mentally
just so many changes
in so few minutes
and it's overtaken me
we went from moulin rouge
to guys and dolls
and from me and sierra
to frankie and emily
and now to kit and kat
and tho i love francie and em
and kit-kat are tolerable
am i still
going to be
who i am?
am i still
going to be...
i'm afraid to say it.
if i'm the pet student,
i'll lose it.
if something happens,
i'm over.
at the beginning of summer i asked all these questions,
like would i be able to cope with your changes
and right now,
the answer
is
a
big
fat
resounding
no
and i fall
into your body
and you hug me
and you tell me everything is going to be
fine
you still love me
things
have
just
gotten
complicated